The night was difficult to pass by …but when I did sleep, I couldn’t wake up in the morning…Slept two more hours than needed…Bit into my study schedule a major five hours (2 hours of sleep + 3 hours of fooling around)…That’s what you get when you’re home alone with a bunch of over-active monkeys for siblings and simply too many distracting gadgets. Ordered in Mac for lunch (we were just too lazy to make the effort to get out of the comfort zone of the house). Started my studies like around three…By six, I had reached my saturation point…Need the grade but I really can’t endure the excruciating preparation…Now, home alone, I feel at peace…No noise, no distraction...And no self-conflicts…Though, J. did take over in the morning – my mood was bad…But I guess it has got to subside somehow…

I just can't sleep...I just don't know why...Maybe its the fact that I screwed up BIG TIME in more than one way...Maybe it is the aftermath of the storm that roared within me...Maybe it's the calm before another storm...Maybe it's just this fact that thinking about Jas kills me inside, makes me restless...I don't know and I don't feel so good now...God! I sound so bloody emotional! So not me, man...Sheesh...It sucks...I can't help it...I don't know what to do...I don't want to talk it out 'cause I don't know how to describe the feeling...I don't want to seem like an overreacting jerk...Which reminds me, I am losing it because of you Jas...Every thought leaves me fazed, confused and terribly lost...Ki dosti nibhaayee...

I can't believe why I keep doing this to myself...How annoying could I get...Not being emo here...But it is sickening when I keep bringing him up or start talking about him despite all I have done to forget it...I am starting to believe I made a mistake making such an idiotic move...How I am supposed to change it all now...Shit you, D...Should have known better...Oh wait, scratch that crap of self-regret and whatever shit...Something's really bugging me bad!...If he really suspected ke main ohnu pasandh kardi si phir ohne ehey jiyaan karam kyo kitey ke I get freaking bothered and disturbed...What an insensitive jerk...Teriyaan aadataan jama jwaakaan vaang...Tainu kise de feelings vaare koi fiker nahin...Why would you anyway...Why am I even bothered about you...Truth be told: having seen you that day didn't disturb me as much as it would have...I guess you are worth being mocked at, instead of being admired...Sheesh, man...

Long presentations...Non-stop yakking faci...It's getting bloody sickening...Same old topic...I want to sleep...I want to go home...Someone kill me now (okay, I am overreacting)...Seriously bored to hell!

It’s her class again…I have nothing against her but she’s quite a boring teacher…And it is so bloody hard to communicate with her…No comments about her teaching but I don’t really like her personality…Thank god nothing’s happened in class today other than Nas losing his mind over POTC and the usual cute-guy talk amongst a handful of girls…It’s a drone after a while…Worse, my mood’s changing again and everything’s getting pretty annoying for me…I should never allow myself to get idle…It just seems that my bad mood catches up with me when I have nothing to do…And I really got to get that sleep…Sheesh!

And the constant worry about my finances is killing me…I am such a spendthrift…I should really reduce extra costs…My mom’s really going to kill me if she knows I have been spending so much…I hope she doesn’t see the bank statement…Sharan, don’t bother opening your mouth…I’ll kill you if you do…

Vow to myself: I shall not fret over those minor and unimportant issues that occurred today…Not worth the time, gal!

Ek gal main tainu dasni si, tere honn naal mainu aj kath farak pia…tohra pia si, I won’t lie, par eh naa soch ke tainu dekh ke main avde rastey da direction badaldungi…That I won’t do…

I don’t know what happened to her today…I don’t even know what happened to all my crew today…All of them started talking about the depressive things about relationships…I mean, yaar, if it’s over, don’t fret about it…Take them as lessons learnt…Those two weren’t in the best mood either, especially her…It’s kind of worrying…She not only seems exhausted but very very stressed.

Dil Nahin Lagda
Heart At Unrest

Reminisce Reminisce
Reminisce Reminisce

Soniye, Dil Nahin Lagda Tere Bina
Dil Nahin Lagda Tere Bina
Gal, my heart’s at unrest without you

Soneya Dil Nahin Lagda Tere Bina
Dil Nahin Lagda Tere Bina
Boy, my heart’s at unrest without you

Reminisce Reminisce
Reminisce Reminisce

Roh Roh Ke Din Langde Ne
I pass my days crying,
Raatan Nu Ginniye Taareh
I pass my nights counting stars
Dil Ta Eh Honhke Parda
This heart yearns and cries
Dis De Naa Sajn Pyaare
When I don‘t see my beloved darling

Aave Teri Yaad
Reminiscing you,
Pal Pal Baad
After every moment,
Kaleyaan Ni Kadhdiyaan Raataan
Can’t spend the night alone

Main Vi Charh Kothe Sajna
Upon my balcony,
Taare Hai Ginndi Rehndi
I just count stars
Taang Bas Rahe Milan Di
Meeting you is the only problem
Nain Naa Neendar Pehndi
Yet sleep doesn’t come upon my eyes

Teri Meri Saanj
Thinking of us,
Tere Hai Baad
After you leave,
Kadhdiaan Din Roh Roh Sajnaa
I spend my days crying

Nain Eh Karan Udeekaan Mulaqaataan Nu
My eyes wait for glances of you
Taras Gaye Kan Soniye Mithiaan Baataan Nu
My ears yearn for your sweet voice

Nain Eh Karan Udeekaan Mulaaqaataan Nu
My eyes wait for glances of you
Taras Gaye Kan Soniye Mithiaan Baataan Nu
My ears yearn for your sweet voice

Soniye, Dil Nahin Lagda Tere Bina
Dil Nahin Lagda Tere Bina
Gal, my heart’s at unrest without you

Soneya Dil Nahin Lagda Tere Bina
Dil Nahin Lagda Tere Bina
Boy, my heart’s at unrest without you

Reminisce Reminisce
Reminisce Reminisce

Hoon Ta Pachchtaaunde Paye Haan
Now we regret
Ishq Da Naag Czhere Ke
Having provoked the love cobra
Kalle Bas Gaaunde Paye Haan
Alone, we sing
Birhon Da Raag Udherh Ke
Having picked at the strings of loneliness

Aaunde Ne Khayal
Reminniscence occurs to me
Kadde Si Tu Naal
Of you being by my side
Bhul Da Ni Sanu Tera Pyaar
I can’t forget your love

Satti Satpal Ki Dasaan
My dear, what should I tell you
Dil De Vich Sochaan Lakhaan
My hearts thinks hundred thousand times
Har Dum Ta Takhdiaan Rehndiaan
Everytime my eyes search,
Raavaan Eh Meriyaan Akhaan
For your paths

Aave Na Nazar
I don’t see you often
Na Koi Khabar
I don’t hear of you
Bhul Da Ni Sanu Tera Pyaar
I can’t forget your love

Nain Eh Karan Udeekaan Mulaqaataan Nu
My eyes wait for glances of you
Taras Gaye Kan Soniye Mithiaan Baataan Nu
My ears yearn for your sweet voice

Nain Eh Karan Udeekaan Mulaaqaataan Nu
My eyes wait for glances of you
Taras Gaye Kan Soniye Mithiaan Baataan Nu
My ears yearn for your sweet voice

Soniye, Dil Nahin Lagda Tere Bina
Dil Nahin Lagda Tere Bina
Gal, my heart’s at unrest without you

Soneya Dil Nahin Lagda Tere Bina
Dil Nahin Lagda Tere Bina
Boy, my heart’s at unrest without you

No more late nights for me ever again!! Two nights in a row, and I feel like I haven’t slept for a whole week…It’s damn exhausting…and it’s really affecting my mood…I don’t know why but I seriously can’t take the noise around me…I need quiet…I just feel like shoving some people into 6-feet deep graves…Really mean it this time!...Just get your bloody head in the game, people!…Yeah, right here…Don’t screw it up for me…It’s not easy after such a hard weekend…

Just now, I thought I screwed it (in something else) up big time and I over-reacted…How damn wrong of me...I’m sorry gal, I “shouted” at you and blamed you for basically some nonsensical crap…Knowing that I shouldn’t give a damn about what others say, I feel bad having to react so weird…My bad…I don’t know what came over me…Am at a freaking war within…Sounds stupid but bloody true…

And yeah, one note to you (not you, gal), please stop your bloody pretense…What the creeping hell do you get by shoving your annoyingly incredibly “diaphanous” façade into my face…Be yourself for once…It just gets on my nerves…Tainu nathak karan di lorh nahin...Main nahin tainu pasandh kardi…Mainton tera eh jhooth nahin hambiya jaanda…You won’t get the point now…But I hope you will soon.

Don’t bother gossiping about us to others too…It’s just going to make you a less impressive person…Honest opinion…You better be grateful I didn't say this on your face in front of others...You wouldn't want to, and I have better things to do...My apologies I am being so bloody mean, but I can't stand you anymore!

Ha! Can’t believe this actually happened to me…I had promised Sarah to watch the third installment of POTC with her at Vivo…and no, I didn’t back out,…we were very well prepared to watch it with our popcorn and nachos and drinks…We had tickets all right…But guess what, it was for the wrong cinema…And that got us into one hell of a run for our seats…It was stupid no doubt…But the adrenaline rush when we got chased out of the theatre and the feeling of uncertainty before the movie started is worth reminiscing her belated birthday celebration…I don’t think I will ever forget this…Despite all that happened, we were blessed to be able to watch JOHNNY DEPP at his best again…Oh man, he was the ultimate hottie…His ruggedness, his intoxicated behaviour and his mysteriously dark eyes…Hell, they’ll make you want to melt in your seat…Depp aside, the movie was superb…Worth all the trouble…

After the movie, we had a quick B&J ice cream feast...And now, I'm home, dying to sleep...