It's almost mid Jan and I have yet to have new year resolutions. So much for being a punctual person (which I had decided I would be this year).

So after much thinking and procrastinating, I have decided to keep some resolutions, some as mundane as the last year's and some incessantly irrelevant.

1) I will lose some weight this year.
This has been such a ceaselessly repeated resolution that it has started to lose its essence. But you can’t blame me for it. Every time, I want to approach the “park” at my house to jog, I am always invited for some outing. And I can’t probably turn down fun so I’m always headed off in the supposedly wrong direction. And then come the days when such outings are basically to places of sheer indulgence. Being human, it’s always inevitable to not fall for temptation. So there goes the whole weight-losing programme.
But this year, I will.

2) I will be myself.
Trust me when I say I need to be myself badly. Gone are those days of blood-sucking fiend-ship and pretentious gawky geekiness. And I have been myself for a quite a while now. At least, I can look into the mirror and say to myself, “Dang, kiks, you look hot!”, seeing a nod in reply to that. Maybe I am crazy but who cares, I am being me.

3) I will forgive and forget pieces of the past
Now, that I really can’t do. I can forget but not forgive. This is just hard to do so. First Jas, then him. If they keep doing this to me, they can’t blame me if I hurt them twice as much because I can forget what you did, but I will never forgive.

4) Concentrate on my studies.
So mundane, I tell you. Same old thing about concentrating on studies and not being able to do so, and then crying over spilt milk. When will I learn? I have got to get into the class but I am afraid I’ll screw things up big time. Seeing my predicted grades, seems like I sure messed it up.

5) Dwell in Singlehood
Ouh I love being single. No worries, no commitments.
I can’t stop thinking about you though, shit!

I guess that’s all that’s worth changing. Hopefully, I don’t see them again next year.