I can't take this anymore. I am feeling so eff-ed up. My mind is being overdrawn by heart and stress and I can't believe I am actually falling for this crap. It's true I like him and I like him more than before but I can't take the fact that he's f*** not going to be mine. He's graduated and I can hardly see him around. It sucks major. Here I am, losing it while waiting to see him in whole, and there fate is, playing the freaking games where I know I might just be at the losing end. I hate this feeling of uncertainty. I'm there and yet not there. What the hell is this? This is so not fair. God! What's happening to me, arrggh!
I'm losing my cool...Down, jay, down...
Ok, done.
But it's not easy to forget.