Honestly,

Gulshan got released on Friday but that just skipped my mind. And I guess he's back in again.

Sometimes, one uncertainty really creeps in and gets me wondering whether I'm doing a sane thing, following my heart. It's probably the darnest thing I have ever done, actually. Something in me keeps bugging me to move on but I'm scared to do so and I don't know why. It's like I am standing perched in the middle of warzone, half-heartedly ready to fight, and almost on the verge of running back for cover. It's something similar. And in the process, I know I am missing out on something I've yet to fathom.

Com-pli-ca-ted! Ishhh....

On a happier note, it's Aruna's birthday today! So:

Oh my god! Jay Sean's 'Maybe' is being known as the Beep-beep song amongst the juniors, non-indians, esp...Such an insult. One of the finest tunes of the year, man! Feeling it!

*Too much exaggeration displayed.LoL


"Chandigarh kare ashiqui, munda jatt da Jalandron aake"
Who's got this tune?....Damn nice song. I think Kohinoor danced to it, ages ago...I'm kinda late at being updated...so can't seem to find it.

The very first one wasn't delivered to the right person. Isshhh. No regrets, but momentarily, the conservativeness oozed out.

And, I am not supposed to be open about this, but I miss Somebody. Fids says it's corny.....babe, you know who's corny? E'eh....don't laugh ah...LoL.

And that someone, supposedly shameless, is so shy nowadays.....so cute...

I wish the UTs are over fast; I need time with my family....Miss spending time with my siblings and cousins....and those excursions....

UTs are up again...Last set. God, the pressure's horrible.

Some things are just happening a tad too fast. I just wanna like stand still for a moment and breathe in whatever's happening. 'Cause this is just adding on to my obliviousness.
Just had a splendid evening with part of the fam at West Coast while soaking our feet in wet sand and watching the kids swing about.
Time just flew by too fast.

And people can never be forgotten. He's proven it to me, despite no trails left behind.


When "I" starts to exist in a relationship more than twice, that relationship will never last. And narcissism should never exist in the first place because it leaves no space for sincere concern. People tend to drift away because of this, not boredom. And worst of all, Envy. Why envy the very person you are supposed to like, to love. What for? Be happy for her just the way she is and be grateful for what you have. Don't compare, and don't limit her liberty. "It's hard to notice when this starts to exist" - and yeah, don't bother giving her that shit, it's too fake. Try reflecting, beyond the usual self-reflection.

If you expect this to last, make it last. Like Suhaimi said, "Be the change you want to see..."
[btw, that guy can be a damn good influence (: ...and talking about his guts, I'm so impressed]

Think about it.

Tuesday 15th July
Went to the doc's today to get a better remedy for my foot.

When the doc asked me how it all happened, I couldn't even tell him what started the pain 'cause I seriously have no idea how I even noticed it in the 1st place.

And guess what his suspected diagnosis for metatarsal pain is: uric acid metabolism? That's the 1st thing he said before moving on to the possibilities of joint trouble or tendon pull. Wah, power sia this doctor. Had to take a fast blood . Before I could even go into the fear mode, it was done with.

Sharamel, so sorry babe, can't make it for the 2nd. But thanks for hearing me out, man. :)

Sunday 13 th July

Although I dread waking up in the morn, I have to say the day was spent well.

Went over to the twins' place for lunch and a movie. Their place is so neat and bright. So well kept. And I tried their mom's cooking for the first time, and it was sick - good! All these years, I had only heard about it, but I got the opportunity yesterday. We also discussed people of yesteryears ( I seem to have forgotten who is who) and him - things seem so changed now.

In the evening, I headed over to my Grandma's for a family celebration. It was a happy occassion but I felt a little shaken.
I can't see her like this. She's old, senile and fragile. And having this throat problem, her breathing's limited. Why isn't there a doctor on call? She's going to go soon, let's face it, but no one's seriously prepared for it. There's some sort of attachment to her, although I wasn't really close to her. She's blood after all.


It's sudden, but I fear its permanent...eh no, I am sure. Things are so weird, I wonder what got into your head. Who taught you to see things this way?
Think. What if it's too late?
People make mistakes, I agree.
But you know, honestly, it's not me.
I'm not foolish - I can see.
People change, I said once.
I didn't - I just came to my senses.
Why is it so hard for you to be selfless?


I am doubting many many things now. I feel deceived.
I don't want to be bothered, but I am. I really feel cheated.

Yah azizie is mahiri

I really don't wanna see u cry

Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo

Don't wanna see another tear in your eye

Baby break away

Let him go

I don't know he's done to you

But I know that it's time to move on

Girl your is love blind

More of us

There are so many pictures that need to be uploaded. Haha. Just couldn't get the time (yeah, kiks, right...)

Location: Peace Centre for Poster printing (1st July)

One of the nicer pics

Poor Ally had to hold the laptop throughout most of the MRT journey...

Making last minute changes to the poster

This is so nice. Classic!

The Gs are haunted by the ghoul in the centre. LoL

The Gs

Proteomics lab, after what seemed like ages.

One look at the poster, I didn't know what to say. But the concept's good, just that when the story gets into the climax, the story's almost coming to an end. And it's towards the end that I felt like sleeping, but luck wasn't on my side. LoL. And yeah, the cinematography could have been better...too many close-ups, not very necessary. But other than that, it was quite an entertainment.

And yeah, Sam, Will Smith looked quite sexy in spandex. Don't scold me la. I ain't going to take him away from you. He's all yours. :P

Walking down that path, reminising the past, I feel fortunate to have actually gone through all of these. I still remember those times. It never occurred to me then that I would be the one who'd evetually fall for him. That was the last thing on my mind. I remember sitting at Banquet after a long day at school having our dinner, when he passed in front of me. My initial reaction was to shake Aru and Sam and they stared after him. When he passed by again, I saw Aru's eyes gleam. And that was the day, she found out he was Punjabi; his name was G.

What happened after that, it's a known fact . . .

It had been in the back of my mind all this while that today was the fateful day when Someone's going to be enlisted. It's an obvious fact that I'm not ready for the change. But somehow, I feel strangely happy.

The lesson was of a slack quality. Everyone was done with our work by the 2nd meeting. And the ultimate activity to pass time, Hide-n-Seek. Yeah, the whole class acting like 5-year olds.
Our playground: the whole of E5. Even the security guards were aware of it.

After the first round we got bored and decided to head to the TRCC, since some of us knew it by heart. LoL. This is where the story starts. It's so freaking hilarious, I was laughing all throughout the whole thing.

Shah, Fidah and I were seekers. We seeked quite a bit before we got distracted from our "mission" by the Handicap lift at the proximal end (mcm anatomy) of the TRCC. Yeah, the lift is freaking captivating, especially since its masked like some store room.

We got in and we managed to get it to work. On the way up, the freaking thing refused to let us out. And there are so many exits at Ground 0 but all with staff access thingy...WTH...Lol...We had to go back into the lift to get it to work. 20 mins in, and still no sign of progression.

Everyone was going crazy, but not with fear (count the "King" out); more like hilarity. Fidah and I would have died out of laughing our asses off. Definitely crazy. Until, for the sake of getting out, we had to call the rest of the class who still happen to be hiding in their respective places.

Our shouts for help were only answered by Suhaimi who, unlike WeiLun, actually believed we were in distress. The other one ran away thinking that we were seeking him. Hahaha...Classic! And some had comfortably found confort in the pantry room to catch 40 winks. Damn funny.

The class power la!

In conclusion: The Seekers Got Seeked.

I have so many pictures taken over the last 10 days to be uploaded. Will do it soon, like once UTs are over which shall be tomorrow...LAST UT!!! for like another week ah. haha

ps: I love you.
nice show. :D

When people ask me whether I have regrets, my immediate reply would be, "No". But now, come to think of it, who am I lying to.

Someone's getting enlisted tomorrow. :)

Do you know what I know?
Maybe. Good. LoL

Happy 15th Birthday,

AMMAN!!!

Walking into manhood, eh! Enjoy your birthday and love you lots!!!