jáydəd | by jayroquil

j á y d e d

by jayroquil

main shaayar to nahin, magar ae haseen . . .

J R Q P r o d ©

It Ain’t Right

Verse 1
I can’t believe it, girl
You’ve been making me sound like I was cynical
Desperate to push you out of my sleazy world
Which you openly claimed just wasn’t love

And you told your crew,
Exaggerating everything that you’ve been through
Getting every brainwashed soul just to side you
Tell me why’d you want to erase the truth

Chorus
Come on, girl, it ain’t right
Why’d you pretend it doesn’t matter
Stick to the truth, it ain’t right
When you try change the chapter
Since I’d walked away, walked away
Since I’d walked away, walked away

Verse 2
Almost everyday,
I’m checking your space and all you ever say
That you’ve fallen deeper for me since I went away.
Keeping track of me like I’m ever going to stay.

What this hypocrisy?
Changing stories whenever you get to talk about me
Acting on your space like this’ always meant to be.
Yet making a fuss for all to see.

Chorus

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KIRAN DHALIWAL

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words of whacked wisdom

1 There are only 3 things women need in life: food, water and compliments.
2 Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out of it alive.

C H E C K E D

Be able to ride, legally
Living to the fullest
Partying Like A Rockstar
Preach what I'm taught
Get into Monash
Drive into freestylin'
Major Control

S H O U T O U T

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21:49 - Wednesday, 25 February 2009

Happy Belated Birthday

Pavan and Bhoujiji

Love you guys to bits and hope you had a great celebration. May you get all the blessings and happiness entitled to you :)

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

Kicking some game

21:52 - Saturday, 21 February 2009

Finally I managed to get hold of my blog...yes its been a horribly long time since I updated but what to do...I needed the time to settle down emotionally.

So now that I am done and getting used to the darn slow lifestyle here (which reminds me: I need the adrenaline rush man!!!), I gotta say Melbourne is such a nice place and its really way more accomodating.

Its been orientation week after settling into my residency which I share with my besties Fidah and Aruna. And orientation, so far, is quite engaging and fun, I mean all that meeting of new people who are somewhat open about everything.

But its different without family and all the other important people. It's just too different and I don't know how to explain. I miss all the bickering, shopping, talking, bullying, whacking, crapping, laughing, crying, dancing, singing, gaming, playing and mostly, praying with the people who hold parts of me together.

Oh well... just 9 more months :)

Specifically for my family and friends...
God I really want you
I think I need you
I miss you
I am thinking of you

Should I try to kick some game with A***...lol...
(Don't get your hopes too high, I ain't going do anything stupid.)

Do you think you're egoistic...then read this

21:19

How do you know you have a high ego:

1) You feel the need to compliment yourself via camwhoring.

2) Most of the pictures you have are more of you and your supposedly nice torso.

3) You don't experiment with expressions in pictures, sticking to one major expression in the fear of losing that "touch".

4) You feel many are inferior to you and you always have the sudden urge to remind them where they stand.

5) You can't tolerate the fact that the same inferior people can actually be better off than you in most other aspects.

6) You think you are the only one around whom the world revolves around.

7) You feel you have the power to choose your league that people want to be part of.

8) You keep losing friends over the smallest argument because you don't want to be the apologising party.

9) You think your word is one of the ten commendments

10) You can't tolerate the fact that people in your league refuse to follow your commendments over whom you think you have full control.

(which reminds me, which ass give you the permission to say all this)

What does having an Ego actually means:

1) You have dire psychological problems, mate. Which loser told you that its perfectly sane to be so indulged in your own shit of a world, where you are the epitome of your superiority and where you think you pull the strings to get things done. You're seriously psycho man. This actually explains why you're living in such pain and unhappiness despite the fact that you are way better off (or you think you are) than the majority.

2) You got fucking insecurities that you need to get rid of via thorough counselling sessions. You seriously require COUNSELLING! Go see the doc before shit like you spreads in this world.

- Dr. Kiki'n Yarass

Reference:Picture - http://www.spiritualresearchfoundation.org/

Hmmm....

15:10 - Tuesday, 10 February 2009

I suspect I might have a personality disorder.
For some reason or another, I have been having various bouts of feelings at different instances. And it's left me in emotional turmoil.

Maybe, maybe not.
But that's the best explanation I have. Unless you can quote my excessively entangled anxiety, sadness and excitement as something else, I'ma leave it as it is

Either this or maybe I am undergoing the worse kind of confusion anyone could undergo.
Ballistic!

Tick Tock Tick

12:36 - Monday, 9 February 2009

Why is it that when I have to leave, everything that's left behind is left behind with a blast?
Why am I not feeling the excitement I'd normally feel when I board on a journey to any destination?
Why am I dreading going off when it's just a matter of 9 months?

Tomorrow's the day.

And I want today to last a lifetime, in every way possible.

Tujh Mein Rab Dikhta Hai

10:30 - Friday, 6 February 2009

a very nice song

RNBDJ
Tu hi to jannat meri, Tu hi mera junoon
Tu hi to mannat meri, Tu hi rukaa sukoon
Tu hi aakhiyon ki thandak, tu hi dil ki hai dastak
Aur kucch na jaanu main, bas itna hi jaanu
Tujh mein rab dikhta hai, yaara main kya karoon
Tujh mein rab dikhta hai, yaara main kya karoon
Sajdhe sar jukhta hai, yaara main kya karoon
Tujh mein rab dikhta hai, yaara main kya karoon

Kaisi hai yeh doori, kaisi majboori
Maine nazron se tujhe chhooliya
Kabhi teri khusboo, kabhi teri baatein
Bin maangey yeh jahaan paa liya
Tu hi dil ki hai raunak, tu hi janmon ki daulat
Aur kucch naa jaanu bas itna hi jaanu
Tujh mein rab dikhta hai, yaara main kya karoon

Tujh mein rab dikhta hai, yaara main kya karoon

Sajdhe sar jukhta hai, yaara main kya karoon

Tujh mein rab dikhta hai, yaara main kya karoon

Chham chham aahein, mujhe tarsaaye
Tera saayaa chedh ke chumta
Tu jo muskaaye, tu jo sharmaaye
Jaise mera hai khudaa jhumta
Tu hi meri hai barkhat, tu hi meri ibaadat
Aur kucch naa jaanu, bas itna hi jaanu
Tujh mein rab dikhta hai, yaara main kya karoon

Tujh mein rab dikhta hai, yaara main kya karoon

Sajdhe sar jukhta hai, yaara main kya karoon

Tujh mein rab dikhta hai, yaara main kya karoon

-English Translation-
You are my heaven, you are my craze

You are my prayers, you are my dire calmness

You're the shade for my eyes, my heart's calling

Besides, I know nothing but this

I see my God in you, and :)

I bow my head in your duty, and :)

What's this distance, what's this limit

Yet I got to touch you with my sight

Sometimes, your scent, or your words

Without asking, I found my world in them

You're my heart's liveliness, you're my wealth worth eons
Besides, I know nothing but this
I see my God in you, and :)
I bow my head in your duty, and :)

Bit by bit, your breath makes me wait restlessly

Your shadow teases and tell

When you smile, when you shy away,

It seems like my Khudaa's dancing

You're my barkhat, you're my lifelong prayer
Besides, I know nothing but this

I see my God in you, and :)

I bow my head in your duty, and :)

A R C H I V E S

cleaning out my closet

D A C R E W

i am anti-social, yeah.

Amman Dhaliwal
As Suhaimi
Asvin Kaur
Cherie Kwek
Gina Lee
Hema Umapathy
Nanthini Viswalingam
Rafidah Rapit
Sabita Karapan

C R E D I TS

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